Is salvation a choice?

Thought study: You have choice A and B. Choice A is removed. B is left. No choice is left if only B is remaining.

choose : [chooz] v. to select from a number of possibilities.

It seems to me the more I grow in my walk with the Lord the more I see there is no other choice. I have fallen away from Him countless times. I reconcile and He is STILL there. I boggles my mind. He truly doesn’t change or fall off His throne if I fall. He cannot deny Himself or His nature. Otherwise, how could He be our High Priest or our Righteousness? It also seems like He is getting bigger and I am getter smaller. When in reality He is revealing Himself. How big is God? He is the First and the Last. He is the I AM that I AM. He has no beginning and no end. The unveiling of Him in me has the capacity to overshadow, dissolve, diffuse, consume and overwhelm everything else in me other than Him. If it is accordance with His will, then those things will align with His will. So, looking back do I really have a choice ‘B’ if choice ‘B’ has no comparison to choice ‘A’? And if that is the case then if ‘A’ is the only choice then how is that a choice? Paul did not say specifically “he chose” salvation. Some may think I am arguing semantics, but if you really think about the context it becomes extremely interesting. Paul said, “IT IS THE POWER OF GOD………to salvation.” I also think Paul is mentioning this when he speaks of the profound mystery of Christ and the Church, Eph. 3:9, 5:32.

Rom. 1:16, “For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also for the Greek.”

Paul was knocked off horse. He said, “Who are You Lord?”

Heb. 8:10, “”For this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, says the LORD: I will put My laws in their mind and write them on their hearts; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people.”

Eph. 1:19, “And what [is] the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power..”

Eph. 2:8-9, “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: [it is] the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.”

Rom. 6:16-18. Rom. 6:19, “I speak in human terms because of the weakness of your flesh.”

Of course, this is my opinion, but here is the word to back it up. If I can choose salvation once it is presented to me then what power is unto salvation? My choice? My strength to choose? What was so influential that a Christian murderer immediately said, “Who are You Lord?” He immediately knew it was God, but did not know Him. All of Paul’s “B” choices fell to the wayside. He even says this in Phil. 3:7-8. I think he is saying compared to Christ there truly is no “B” choice once He is revealed inside, Gal. 1:16. And yes, I do believe we have free-will. I also believe God is God. Rom. 9:17-23. After writing this, I have more assurance that God is more aware of me and my circumstances than I thought. He is not limited by time or human intellect or expectation. He already knows. That hurts my head.