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What is feeling sorry for oneself?

Some thoughts and opinions come to mind.

• You are not worthy.
• You have no worth.
• You cannot justify your worth no matter how hard you try.
• It’s only happening to you.
• You are pitiful.
• No one understands you or your situation.
• No one cares or loves you.
• You just can’t win.
• You may never make it.
• When will you ever learn anything?
• Why don’t you try a new anecdotal recipe? It might help.
  • May even come from the pulpit!
  • Maybe some new vitamins, workout routine, haircut, clothes, car, relationship will help?
• What is the matter with you?
• You are such a martyr. No one knows, but you.
• Push a peanut with your nose and keep pushing.

By the way, these are all lies and deception.

After writing these bullets out and this list could go on and on it seems the feeling sorry for oneself is

• SUPER-
  • self-loathing
  • self-dislike
  • self-hostility
  • self-blame
  • self-reproach

And all is base on self-imposed law apart from Christ. Christ has abolished this self-imposed law in His flesh. It no longer has power. At the cross, Christ took the enemy’s spoils and stripped away his clothes before the universe exposing him to all, Col. 2:15. Paul said he didn’t even judge himself, 1 Cor. 4:3. Paul said Christ set him free from this self-imposed person of death! Rom. 7:24-25.

ONLY CHRIST CAN SET YOU FREE FROM YOU. NOTHING and NOONE else can. He purges the conscience. No other belief or religion can do this. He did it before the foundations of the earth and time.

He whom the Son sets free is free indeed. Darkness cannot comprehend light. Truth stands alone.

Ginsu reference.

Early in Hebrews chapter 4, Paul is talking about God’s rest and that we enter by faith. Faith comes by the hearing the Logos.

So, he writes Hebrews 4:12.

¹² For the word (logos) of God is living (zoe) and powerful (energeo), and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division (distinction by purging the conscience) of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a (separator) discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.

The word “discerner” means critical. The root means to separate. The word or logos separates the real from the non-real, genuine from disingenuous and leaves grace and truth or itself, or nature. It changes motive and even thoughts!

Hebrews 4:1, “The promise to enter the place of rest is still good..”

Rest: κατάπαυσις or katapausis. It means “a putting to rest” or “calming of the winds.”

Kata means “to diffuse.”

-Pausis or the root, pauo, means:

• to make to cease or desist
• to restrain a thing or person from something
• to cease, to leave off

So, when 2 Cor. 5:17 says, “Therefore if any man [be] in Christ, [he is] a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.” The old intrinsic man or nature, Col. 2:14, Obliterated blog, is  passing away and really not there in Christ. The new man, Christ in us, the hope of glory, is diffused into every particle and fiber of our existence by grace.

This diffusion creates God’s rest in us! Rest from all dead works, legalistic sacrifices and self-imposed law. This rest says I do not need approval from man because Christ is my righteousness and right standing with God the Father. In this rest, I am not compelled to leave sacrifices even at the altar of my heart because all of the law has been fulfilled for the Jew and abolished for the Gentile. This abolition created by one man created One New Man, Christ Jesus, the Last Adamic pattern for man, Eph. 2:14-16. So, that we can live and walk in the Spirit and live by His faith us all the time in His rest.

1 Cor. 7:37, “Nevertheless he that standeth stedfast in his heart, having no necessity, but hath power (ἐξουσία exousia, authority) over his own will, and hath so decreed in his heart…”

I possess and grow daily in the knowledge that has been kept hidden in ages past, but now revealed, of the will of God through His only Son Jesus. The knowledge of His will imparts and diffuses into my will. In doing so, I also grow in His authority.

Authority or “exousia” in the Greek means, “Denotes “authority” (from the impersonal verb exesti, “it is lawful”). From the meaning of “leave or permission,” or liberty of doing as one pleases, it passed to that of “the ability or strength with which one is endued,” then to that of the “power of authority,” the right to exercise power…”

The authority is in His will in me by grace.

Galatians 2:17, (CEV) “When we Jews started looking for a way to please God, we discovered that we are sinners too. Does this mean that Christ is the one who makes us sinners? No, it doesn’t! But if I tear down something and then build it again, I prove that I was wrong at first.”

Gal. 2:17-18 (KJV), “But if, while we seek to be justified by Christ, we ourselves also are found sinners, [is] therefore Christ the minister of sin? God forbid. For if I build again the things which I destroyed, I make myself a transgressor.”

Even as a physical Jew, if I am trying to please God another way besides His faith and grace in me. Then it is ME (not Him) rebuilding the old barn that was destroyed. I am proving to myself I cannot fulfill my self-imposed law and am falling short of the glory of God, Rom. 3:23. In doing so, I am putting myself back under law that I suppose to be judging me and am unable to ever fulfill when in reality there truly is No condemnation in Christ for those in the Spirit.

Played foosball today, 07/22/2009. I was a little concerned about being skunked. Then this thought came to mind, “You can’t will to win with fear.”

“His willingness does not abide with fear of failure or judgment.”

His will just IS. He does not second guess Himself because He already knows.

Fear based on self-imposed law impedes His perfect will. It impedes or hinders because it empowers the old nature which is not walking or living in the Spirit. The just shall live by His faith in them.

His perfect will does not possess fear.

His will is perfect and not whimsical.

If I “try” to be willing then this is a self-strength based will. Revelation of Him based on hearing the word imparts understanding and knowledge of His will. This knowledge is without lack. His nature is fullness. In His righteous nature, there is no fear of not being righteous because He is. He is the I am that I am. In His fullness, His willingness is complete and without hesitation based on supernatural godly love. He is love. He is perfect love that casts out fear and torment.

When He said, “Let there be light.” He did not hesitate or doubt what He said. It is impossible for God to doubt Himself or His own will. This will is in us by revelation of God’s only Son!

Today, 08/22/09, tried to play racquetball. I used to be an avid racquetball player. I was indecisive on playing, but gave it a try. Overall, I really wasn’t up to playing. After I practiced, I felt the Lord tell me, “I dwell in willingness.” I didn’t understand, but knew this was revelation. Later, I prayed and thought about it some more. I discovered He is the one who enables the willingness. This willingness makes us righteous. We receive revelatory knowledge or impartation of His will, this willingness, by hearing and hearing the word. The affect of just hearing the word, the true and living word, changes us from image to image, pattern to pattern, and glory to glory. Our motive is changed supernaturally by grace, faith and revelation.

Galatians 5:18 says, “But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law.”

I am led by the Spirit by grace through faith, revelation along with His will and energy in me. He is leading me inside not like an automaton, but a with all freedom to do and be. The caveat is I do and be because of who I am in Him. I am found in Him. My identity is not based on my accomplishments, how I feel, my degree, or even what I think, but it is based in Him. He is the Last Adam. He is the last pattern for all mankind.

His Spirit leads me internally by grace. Romans 1:15 says, “By whom we have received grace and apostleship, for obedience to the faith among all nations, for his name:”

“For the obedience (hearkening, listening) to (or in, unto, towards, for) the faith…”

This ‘hearkening’ called obedience is the affect of grace upon us.

Col. 2:14, “Blotting out the handwriting of ordinances that was against us, which was contrary to us, and took it out of the way, nailing it to his cross;”

Paraphrase from the Greek:

Obliterating the handwritten “opinion or judgment” that was bonded and diffused into our actual nature. He took it out of the way (to the Father), nailing it to his cross in His flesh.

In doing so, He created one kainos (new) man, Eph. 2:15, and the Way. This Way is into Him and His Spirit. The kainos Way of the Spirit by revelation under the New Covenant. He separated us from this old nature at a spirit level that effects our d.n.a. and soul because the separation puts us into Him, the new (kainos) man. This kainos man pattern is who we really are in righteousness and truth. The separation is not based on us or what we can do, but solely on Him and His grace and power that He gives to us freely because He is love! And we are created in His image. His will is that the orignal pattern be established by His son in us by grace and revelation, Col. 3:10.

Heb. 8:13, “In that he saith, A new [covenant], he hath made the first old. Now that which (passive voice) decayeth (obsolete law, Col. 2:14; worn out; no longer applicable) and waxeth old (just plain old) [is] ready to vanish away (to cause to disappear, put out of sight).”

Col. 2:12-14, “Buried with him in baptism, wherein also ye are risen with [him] through the faith of the operation (godly-life energy, Philemon 1:6) of God, who hath raised him from the dead. And you, being dead in your sins and the uncircumcision of your flesh, hath he quickened together with him, having forgiven you all trespasses; Blotting out the handwriting of ordinances that was against us, which was contrary to us, and took it out of the way, nailing it to his cross;”

This blog builds a little on The streak is over.

It seems that old thoughts fade away with time. Possibly, because they are not real, substantial and lasting. I am reminded of Revelation 21:4, “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” How? Because He is more real than the fading thoughts from the old nature that are bent on fear and non-faith. Faith remains forever.

So, even our thoughts apart from Christ age or grow old! Pause and chew again on what you just read. The spiritual substance in us remains. Something that ages or grows old is under the curse. It corrupts. It looses its strength. Jesus separated me from the old me and even time itself or the expectation of time! How? Jesus is more real than time. The good things according the knowledge of Him in my create His godly-life energy, manifest and impart His nature in and through me. These good things are not time dependent, but independent of time. The fruit of the Spirit is independent of time. We bear His fruit because of His faith in us by grace and revelation. These are not time dependent.

That is what Paul means when he says, “That God might reveal His son in me.” The truth is in Him. He is the truth. Truth does not hinge or change because of anything even time itself. This is what ‘near death experience’ people express when they die. They say that where they are or where they go is ‘more real.’ Something that is always now doesn’t change. It is immutable, but is always new. This is the new creation in Christ.

All that can be shaken that is not real or according to His good will and pleasure will be shaken. Truth is immovable!

Last night, 09/06/09, I read 1 Thess. 3:13 in the Aramaic New Testament. It says,  “And may HE stand your hearts with no accusation in holiness before God the Father.”

I asked the Lord, “What is holiness?” He replied, “It’s you.”

1 Pet. 1:16, “Because it is written, Be ye holy; for I am holy.”

I am reminded again of when He also said, “My willingness makes you righteous.” Heb. 10:9-10