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Romans seems to align more with Paul’s sound doctrine in the Aramaic. I’ve read Romans chapter seven I’m guessing hundreds of times and I am of the opinion Paul is speaking in the context of pre-salvation and knowing Christ. The translated Aramaic verses below seem to back that up. According to Romans 8:1, the pre- and post- versions are distinguished. Also, in the King James version, the beginning of 8:1 below is actually included in 7:25^a. My question then is why is that? Makes me think.

XII 7:25 I give thanks to Aloha ! (it is) by the hand of our Lord Jeshu Meshiha.
XIII. 8:1 Now then, I in my mind am the servant of the law of Aloha, but in my flesh I am the servant of the law of sin. Hence, there is no condemnation to them who do not walk according to the flesh, in Jeshu Meshiha.

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• Khabouris Galatians to Philemon
• Khabouris Romans

The Greek preposition kata-, κατά, can mean¹ “diffusion or direction from the higher to the lower.” Below, are some examples of diffusion in everyday life.

• A balloon filled with helium will deflate a little bit every day, because helium atoms diffuse out of the balloon through its wall
• When spaghetti is cooked, water molecules diffuse into the spaghetti strings, making them thicker and more flexible
• Carbon dioxide bubbles in soft drinks diffuse out of your soda, leaving your soda flat
• A smelly gas distributes itself over a room by diffusion (flower fragrance, garbage stink, body odor )
• A sugar cube in a glass of water that is not stirred will dissolve slowly and the sugar molecules will distribute over the water by diffusion
• A wilted carrot or celery made firm again by soaking in water
• The smell of cookies diffuses through the house as they bake
• Perfume – perfume gas molecules diffuse into the air when put on so you can smell it
• Air freshener/deodorant – same concept as above.
• Teabag diffusion – tea leaf pigments diffuse through teabag to give the water its color and taste of tea
• Cigarette smoke – it diffuses into the air and spreads throughout the room

I can’t experience His life if I don’t know I’m dead.
How do I know if I’m dead?
Do things have power over me like they use to?
What is the revelation of His death we partake of and in?
What are we dying from? What no longer has power?

If I am a heretic then I am in good company. Some questions to ponder…

• What makes me aware of the law? (I think what made Adam aware?)
• Whatever makes me aware of the law makes me aware of sin and its power and guilt. That is the purpose of the law to make me aware of the wages of sin and the dysfunction of it.
• Am I aware of Life if when I am aware of the expectation of the law?
• If Christ fulfills the law in me then should I perceive any expectation or obligation to fulfill it?

I remember I told a brother one time in the mall, “We ARE His righteousness. We actually partake of HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS. It is US. It is in us!” His response in awe (awe of God’s word and Spirit), “You have been getting some revelation.” Then he actually started to step back. I believe he was in shock. The bible says when people encounter God they are in awe and wonder like looking at something they have never seen before, saw the first time or thought did not exist.

So, I’m thinking about this some three to four years later and realize something. I am persuaded and believe I see now in more depth that the righteousness he percieved was more real than what I thought and conceieved at the time. I believe what him and I witnessed was evidence and a demonstration of reality. What does that mean? Just what I said. The reality he saw was “more real” than the mall we were standing in. I believe this is also part of our witness as believers in the Most High. Even our glory with unveild faces as Paul writes.

I have read testimonies of NDE’s (near-death-experience) individuals who claim the “other side” is more real than our world on earth. They witness more sounds, colors, tastes and so on. If the world witness the hypocritcal and fake church and is supposed to think that is real then no wonder they are not drawn.

Last weekend, I finally did a long awaited amends. It was one of the hardest things for me to do. Even in the process of doing it I pulled my back. Guess I was stressing. I discovered several things and am seeing them clearer. My wife has told me quite a bit, “Honey, you have a lot of head knowledge (scriptures), but no so much heart knowledge.”

I believe when I put into practice the principles and good works that the Father created in me in Christ Jesus to do the heart knowledge comes naturally and not forced. The word says, “Love is always faithing.”

Galatians 5:6

“The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love¹.”

I think “faithing love” is a combination of walking out in His faith, with the motive of His word and Spirit. So, a God-inspired action verb, 2 Cor. 5:14.

So, back to “amends”. I have realized so far seven things:

• Fear is dis-empowered.
  • My expectation is made null upon the previously unforgiven. Therefore, I cannot be let down. There is no fear of being let down. The lie of my expectation to make the person I resented is exposed by light. Darkness cannot comprehend light².
• Heart knowledge supernaturally created.
  • Described above.
• Victimization
  • The justification for victimization is also made null.
  • The victim in victimization can no longer blame nor should have the desire.
    
• Motive is supernaturally changed by the power of God.
  • Through faith and the experience of it (faith), along with revelation of the word and Christ’s love my motive is altered into godliness.
• Redemption
  • The actualization of Christ is buying back my life and heart is living itself out. The land of hearts is also being bought back.
• Restoration
  • There the potential of my soul, relationship and life being restored.
• Ownership.
  • I learn accountability. The process of amends and working it out shows me “MY PART”. This part can ONLY be accomplished by me. This ownership creates character and maturity.
    

   

I have a long journey ahead on the amends road, but now look more forward to it. I know all will not go the way I hope or expect them to, but that is also part of the process. It is about me having ears to hear Him one amends at a time.

Felt let again to read Romans 6 and I got to…

Romans 6:12

“Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body, that you should obey it in its lusts.”

Seeing it in a different light a little.

Here’s my paraphrase aligning with the word and Paul’s doctrine.

“Therefore, (command) do not allow the law to empower sin in your members even to the point of listening to its desires and lusts. The law is the power of sin. We partake in His death in which the law has no power over. The law cannot judge a dead person and is not able to.”

So, my next question is how do I not allow the law to empower sin in me? I am powerless apart from Christ. Well, the Bible says greater is He who is in me that he who is in the world. I live His life. He lives His life through me know. The fellowship of the mystery.

This God-Man, The King of Kings, Christ Jesus,  in me is ALIVE to GOD! He IS the WORD in the flesh. I have an opportunity everyday to partake of His divine nature according to the Apostle Peter. So, there is a revelation of the powerlessness of the law over me in Christ. Yes. My conscience is purged from dead works. Works performed by my self-strength and flesh are DEAD, but Rom. 8:3-4 says He came in the likeness of sinful flesh and did what my flesh was unable to do through the law. He penalized sin in His flesh. He fulfilled ALL of the law in His flesh. He died ONCE. No more penalty because he condemned sin Himself in Himself and perfect love casts out fear AND torment. Torment of the penalty of the law and the inability apart from Christ to ever fulfill it.

Hmmm…So, no more penalty? Therefore NOW, no condemnation in Christ Jesus. Ok, so the law is dis-empowered. The handwritten ordinances against and contrary to us have been disintegrated in Christ. Therefore, how can my conscience IN CHRIST have knowledge of the power of the law if Christ’s power is omnipotent? If my conscience is seared by the legalism of law or defiled then opportunity to empower the law is potential, but if my conscience is not aware of the judgment of the law then is it aware of what it is judging? A-ha, now I’m getting somewhere.

Sin cannot be empowered if I am not aware of it. A dead man is not aware of condemnation. Glory! The law is no longer bringing back the knowledge of sin. Why? My question is how could it if Christ’s blood is more than the blood of the Old Testament goats and bulls? Is this the secret place of the Most High? Or a vicinity in the Spirit? Or is it just being spiritual like Paul ascribes to? A lot of questions and God is more good than anything I could ever comprehend unless He revealed it in me.

Today, my wife threw me a very nice and memorable Father’s Day. At church, during praise and worship, I don’t remember the exact song, but I was metaphorically raptured in His presence. There are always moments that I am ever so grateful for and sometimes take for granted, but today was very special. He, The Lord, walked into the church.

Imagine being a transient on the streets for some time and it just so happens you are invited to formal dinner. You have no formal wear, but show up with what you have. Then you sit down and enjoy the ambiance of the ceremony and fellowship of others while eating food you made by master chefs.

As your eating or talking to an acquaintance, then for some reason the atmosphere of the room changes. It is like the audience inhales all at once and everyone’s heart beat is heard in one accord. The silence is roaring even though it is quiet. You don’t even look up, but just know without a shadow of doubt that Royalty just entered them room. The Royalty though is not just royalty from the United Kingdom of the tales of King Arthur, but Royalty on the scale of all creation itself.

That is similar to what I experienced today in worship. I bowed my head and opened my palms to the King of all Kings, the Lord Jesus Christ. He Did walk into church today. I always cherish these moments to be in His presence.

When this happened at scripture came to mind and then rhema was diffused. The Spirit of God brought from heaven by grace and revelation this verse in a new spiritual depth, James 4:8, “Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.” The word says he dwells in His people’s hearts by faith and He lives in their sincere praise and worship. His will does not change. At a moment during the service, according to His will, the Lord drew near. That was the revelation. I saw relationship. This blew me away. He drew near because it is His will. We (as a group) drew near to Him. His grace in us enabled us to draw near.

Now, I ask myself why? Why did this blow me away? Well, I think that is the point and side-affect of His presence. He is the I AM that I AM. He is not of this world. It is alien to my flesh and finite brain. God is love. Christ is the only begotten Son of Love. This love is unearthly, non-carnal and unstoppable. That is the affect of relationship with God. To be in awe. To revere. To worship and draw near again and again.

From time to time, I enter a conversation with another believing brother. I say that the law of Moses has been abolished in Christ. The response is , but Jesus fulfilled the law. I respond He fulfilled it for the Jew and abolished for the Gentile. Romans say Christ is the end of the law, Rom. 10:4. Romans 8 says that the requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us¹. If I fulfill paying off a debt then why should I continue paying it? It is fulfilled. Dictionary.com says fulfilled is defined as “to bring to an end; finish or complete, as a period of time.”²

I have a few questions:

• If Christ is the end of the law and has fulfilled it then am I by God’s grace and Spirit to follow in His footsteps as Testator (Heb. 9:16-17) and fulfill it again?
• Was Christ the only one who could fulfill the law (Rev. 5:2)?

He fulfilled the law without having sin in His own life to become our atonement. In doing so, He then abolished the requirements of the law in His flesh. He told the Jews He did not come to destroy the law but fulfill it, but Paul a Hebrew of Hebrews says He abolished the requirements it in His flesh.^{3 4}  Jesus was talking to Jews who tried to obey the law. I think He was saying, “My brothers, you don’t have to fulfill it anymore. That is why I have come. To fulfill something you were never intended to fulfill or ever will fulfill. That was and is not its purpose.” Once again, my humble opinion. In the abolishment of the enmity, commandments and ordinances He created one new man out of two, Eph. 2:15.

Paul was saved and was even calling the Jews mutilators of the flesh. These mutilators were keeping the law of Moses through circumcision. I believe we as believers partake of His fulfillment one revelation at a time even though it is already fulfilled in us.

God says, “I will put my law in their inward parts, and write it in their hearts”, Jer. 31:33. How? By grace and revelation of everything His Only Son accomplished. Paul even says, “To reveal His Son in me…”, Gal. 1:16. To me, this is more in line with sound doctrine. I am no longer called to keep the law. Chapter and verse heretic.

Galatians 3:10, “But those who depend on the law to make them right with God are under his curse, for the Scriptures say, “Cursed is everyone who does not observe and obey all the commands that are written in God’s Book of the Law.”

I’ve been doing a lot of heart digging lately, soul searching and HEART checking (for CR peeps.) I have seen other areas in my life that I struggle in in a whole different light. A good, beautiful and liberating light. A brother once told me, “All truth is parallel.” Another one said, “Truth stands alone.” I see that Truth does not have to prove itself either. I guess perhaps because of its undeniable reality. So it seems, that truth sets me free into reality once I have received it into my heart and being. The word says the things that are not seen are the things that are eternal. To me, that seems like reality. It doesn’t go away.

Back to my struggles. The can of worms I have opened are emotional dependency and enmeshment. Enmeshment is a doozy. I see as a boy I enmeshed with my handicap mother and was totally disconnected from my emotionally distant father. My mother had a number of ailments. As her son, I empathized with her (I think now) with unhealthy boundaries. If she felt good then I felt good. If she hurt then I hurt. I worried about her. In the back of my mind towards the end I knew she was on borrowed time. Something an elementary child does not have the capacity for. My family like so many others was a prime example of dysfunction.

I have discovered through various avenues and sources patterns of enmeshment and emotional dependency throughout all of my life. An example would be if I feel sad then someone I am close to must feel sad. That right there is a red flag. Why should someone else have to feel what I feel? So, I can feel better? If they are sad I must feel sad. I saw this emotion tonight. I saw that I was wanting someone else to feel and understand my sadness. Then I asked myself, “Why?” It is as if the other person has to feel what I feel for me to somehow discern or validate what I am feeling. If that is the case, then am I truly feeling what I am feeling? That is enmeshment. Also, co-dependency like a mug. When I saw this, I said aloud, “That is truly sick.” The emotions of two or multiple individuals are so intertwined or rather tangled that personal, independent, unique emotion is distorted and not released. It has no real basis because it does not emote from the individual. Instead, it is birthed or really an aborted emotion of two or more enmeshed individuals. I say aborted because the outcome is not healthy or godly. It is unhealthy, twisted and rooted in self and fear.

So, I asked the Lord, “If enmeshment is this….then what is it called with Your Son Christ?” I heard, “In Him.” Then I asked what does that look like, “A new creation in Christ.” So, my conclusion was enmeshment is man’s emulation of self-redemption through self-will. The prophet Samuel said, “Stubbornness is as idolatry.” If I am basing my emotional reaction (not response) on someone else then that is an ungodly motive. HE sets me free from me, Romans 7:24.

Romans 8:2-6 declares, “For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law could not do in that it was weak through the flesh, God [did] by sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, on account of sin: He condemned sin in the flesh, that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us who do not walk according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those [who live] according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. For to be carnally minded [is] death, but to be spiritually minded [is] life and peace.”

It seems that Jesus has taken this to the cross also. Praise God. And now, I can receive it from the Holy Spirit through the throne of grace. Glory. I recall when He said, “Father, Father, why have You forsaken me?” His disciples betrayed Him. His own people crucified Him. His thoughts and ways are truly not mine. And He doesn’t change. In Him, there is the fullness of the Godhead bodily. There is no lack. And He is the Last Adam, a quickening spirit. Life-giving spirit. Eternal life-giving spirit. He is also my High Priest and is able to empathize with me because He was a man just as much as I am, but without sin! Who is this Jesus? He is man and God.

So now, when triggers occur or whatever situation I am being mindful, “preparing my mind for action”, as Peter says, and identifying the emotion, the thought and the motive. If I don’t then no light is being shed. Once I have recognition of its identity then I can know the truth about it. And the truth will always push me into the eternal pool of liberty.

Quote from Darkness cannot comprehend Light and Truth,

Darkness cannot take hold of Light because of its inherent nature.

Quote from PreceptAustin.org,

¹For a little while longer the light (He is alluding to Himself, Jn 1:9, 8:12) is among you. Walk (present imperative – as your lifestyle, your habitual practice) while you have the light, that darkness (skotia – absence of light, personified by John of the forces hostile to God) may not overtake (katalambano – grasp or seize) you; he who walks (present tense = as the habit of their life, as manifest by their lifestyle) in the darkness (skotia) does not know where he goes. (John 12:35)