I accepted Jesus Christ as my savior in the summer of 1987 on a Capital Metro bus by myself. I asked Him, “If you are real like so-in-so says you are, then show me.” He did. Later, as I grew in Him, I realized He is my Lord and Savior. In ignorance, insecurity, and fear, I have tried to runaway from Him. Every time, I reconciled or came back He did not change or leave. His love was the same. This shocked me every time. I couldn’t understand this, but I knew it was undeniably true. So, in guilt, I’d try harder to be what I thought He wanted me to be and fell harder. I came to and end in myself. Afterwards, Christ revealed himself in me. Now, I no longer want to run or try to be what I think I should be. I am in His rest and growing in the grace and knowledge of Him.
The following blogs express some of my life and childhood,
- Is it God‘s will for me to have this?
- What is sound doctrine?
- One day we will go to Nepal God-willing
- Don’t touch me
- Ten minutes
- By my side
- Can’t judge a book by its cover
- There is no exit here
- What am I falling from?
- Self-imposed law is real
- This is him?
- Moved with compassion
- Separating again…
- “The thought came to mind”or “The Lord told me”